More Fun in the New World

Working with Ganesha, Kali, and Shiva for years, I am thankful, prepared me for the huge changes that fell upon me not long after my last post. My present for our sixth anniversary turned out to be a surprise divorce, with homelessness the ribbon on top. Quite a storm ensued within indeed, despite the fact that many of my friends and family, and substantial voices from within me, had wanted a change of this nature. I had done some serious work on being grateful for and committed to the relationship despite its shortcomings, which seemed to exacerbate the temptation to stamp my little foot, shake my curls, and commit suicide.

Had to admit, though, not only had I prepared for it, but asked. Or offered my willingness. I had been feeding Papa Legba almost every day, had given him a cane, and his Macoute-Legba. I had almost collapsed in front of Ogun, had met the wise Priestess about whom I wrote earlier, had worked under her guidance with Olokun, had spent many hours each week in study. It was strongly palpable, or "in the air," as my older lady relatives were wont to say, that something was about to change. I wanted it to; I was offering myself. For some time I'd had a practice a friend informed me was a variation on one observed by Tibetan Buddhists, asking to die each day if I couldn't be useful. So here was my crossroads.

The suddenness and irrevocability of being divorced/evicted blew my expectations up. But within twenty-four hours, magic and blessing began to play their music like a different section of the orchestra taking up the melody. It didn't immediately soothe the screaming kid, of course; I can be as big an emotional mess as the next person, so sometimes there was whining, complaining, cussing, bitching, etc., but the current was in motion. In no time, I found a Reiki class where I'll be get Reiki 2 attunement November 29, was offered a lease in a wonderful new home with an inspiring, smart, dog-loving person, reconnected with many dear friends, and began to hope for a future in which I really could and would be useful. The need to know exactly what's going on in the world(s) of fashion is letting go of me; my costume and makeup collection will be useful for many things, but since at this point I'd only work in those fields for film and performance/ritual and maybe sell some costume stuff on etsy, I don't need to follow the news and trends and changes. Wherever things are going, they are going to be wonderful, and I am so, so grateful.

Finally, I found this article, with so much amazing information in it: http://www.uni-koeln.de/phil-fak/afrikanistik/kant/data/ML1_kant1.pdf by Elizabeth Mackenrodt. Certainly going to look for other work from her...so many parts of her article having inspired many questions, ideas, hopes that we can share the benefits of so many kinds of healing.